LOVE HELP! I screwed up big with the guy I love, what do I do now?!?

Alright so I'll start off by saying that last May I met a guy who I thought was the most amazing guy in the world, he was smart sweet and very goodlooking and I was infatuated with him. We dated for 2 months and I thought I was so inlove with him that I gave into him pressuring me for . He turned into a huge after and eventually he broke up with me, and never even gave me a reason. I was totally heart broken. We completely stopped talking and hated each other. About a month later I met another guy, he wasn't nearly as good looking as the guy before but he was so sweet and would do anything for me. We were seeing each other for about 4 months, and we were on the verge of becoming a couple when my ex started talking to me again. I guess he had heard that I had a thing with this guy, and starting telling me that this guy was trash and made it seem as though he wanted to get back together. I ended things with the guy and then never ended up getting back with my exDETAILS TO COME